I have been away from the Bubble for around 1 week and a half now. My first exploration trip. I flew around 1.7K Light Years above the Bubble, then went to the Elephant Trunk nebula. Then, I left the Inner Orion's Spur for the first time, and when to the Elysian Shore to visit the NGC 7822 nebula. There, I encountered my first black hole as a pilot, and my second black hole as a human being, as I was born in the galactic center, near the Supermassive Black Hole, Sagittarius A*. I found my first undiscovered systems and planetary bodies during my travels.

I spotted 2 nebulae close to each other and I decided that they would be my next destination. They are called the Heart & Soul nebulae, and they are considered by many the gateway to the Formidine Rift. It was there where I found about the Children of Raxxla. I have heard about Raxxla before, but I did not pay too much attention to it. But now my curiosity was activated, and I decided to do some more research. During my research, I learned more about Project Dynasty, The Club and the Zurara megaship. I realized what my next destination would be.

I arrived at the Zurara yesterday. I haven't slept since then. I haven't felt more depressed, disappointed and alone in my life. These people were sent there, supposedly for a mission for the good of humanity, but they were left there to die. They were betrayed, and murdered. And "R", that mysterious woman who found the Zurara 3 years after the crew's death, talks about some kind of a conspiracy. "It goes way up, way beyond the Feds, the Imps and the Alliance". What does she mean by that? That there is some kind of puppetmaster? A group perhaps? Is this what The Club is about?

I started my journey excited, but now I feel dull. I feel sad. And powerless. They were tricked, they went there just to get murdered. Can you believe that? These people were used as pawns. And for what? What was the purpose? And... what if we are pawns, too? If there is a conspiracy going on... how will we, independent pilots, find out the truth and help humanity? I am scared. Everything is so dark and lonely out here. Isolated from civilization. It's like I came in knocking on death's door. If something were to happen to me out here, would anyone be able to find me?

...No. This is not the time for overthinking. I came here for a reason. I must find the truth about this. "R" says that the truth is back in the Core Systems, but I will stay here for a while. There is nothing out here, yet there is everything. So many star systems, still in the main sequence. Stars in the middle of their lifetime. I don't know if there is biological life out here, but there is life, in the stars. I will go deeper into the darkness, to explore all these isolated systems. I will be the light in the darkness.

I won't give up on my goal. I will continue seeking Oneirophobia, the gateway. I am no longer alone in this. When I return to the Core Systems, I will tell my squadron the truth. I will share my plans. I hope they will stay, and help me.

Ad Astra, commanders. o7